I’m sad,
badly sad.
I regret to do my project under Sang.
Sang was, is and will be busy all the time…
No time to care about my work.
However, he IS a kind person, hard-working and busy, busy, busy…on and on.
Every time I see him, he tells me how busy he is and will be within, at least, a week, and complains about his doctor candidates doing nothing! What a lab! No wonder I got no warm-hearted, “useful” advice from those doctors. But I did not realize the reality.
He turned me over to his doctorate students.
Well, they were, are and will be busy, too… like their mentor.
Typical lab style? And the Indiffence…
Sadly, I am not the self-motivated, aggressive type.
I did not say anything, complain anything, just wait…
I chose the place and the mentor, what can I do? Can I? I am afraid, and did nothing to change the situation.
I waited too loooonnnnnng before realizing something bad happened.
If I could do something, I would leave the place, come back to Huang.
Time passed, never comes back.
I regret to refuse Huang.
Huang is a kind mentor, and NOT busy too much.
He still has time to check the lab, advises us, including undergraduates like me…
The reality is I am not proactive and focused. I need direct and timely advice.
Boredom haunts me from time to time. Only movies can solve my problem…
This boring, loooonnnnng, stupid six months brings me nothing on academic improvement.
Boredom, boredom, boredom…
Weakness, weakness, weakness…
The only valuable achivement is I watched many many many movies.
What a life!
A Not So Boring Life!
If I failed, I gained experience.
Keep in mind: I am not self-motived. I need direct and nice feedback to save me back to a Not-So-Boring state. I had better find something new other than movies to perform the transition.
How can I become a focused type, without cramming to push me?
I don’t know. The first thing is movie. But I don’t want it any more…
So, keep on searching. Try something new…
Hope Shandong bring me a cool, not-so-boring summer!
Most importantly, something new to replace movies.
Keep on searching…
Have faith…
A Not So Boring Life!